A long time coming


“Wake up it's time
We need to find a better place to hide
Make up your mind
I need to know I need to know tonight “
(Foo Fighters – Razor)


“What if you
Could wish me away
What if you
Spoke those words today
I wonder if you'd miss me
When I'm gone”
(Joshua Radin - What If You)


“All I can say I shouldn't say
Can we take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time”
(Jimmy Eat World - Work)


I don’t know how to clarify my current mood
I guess I’m angry, angry to the point I don’t know why I’m angry
Sometimes I do stupid things to make my self feel
Coz I get so numb that I don’t know if I can feel anything
I have just spent the weekend trying to celebrate a friend’s birthday
While the whole time I felt like I wanted to sit in a corner and cry
I shouldn’t have gone out, but I did anyway
And I drank so much to make myself act like I was happy
That I only made my self hurt more afterwards
And now I feel angry
I feel exhausted from trying to control my anger
Yet I can not sleep
And after all that I still want to sit in a corner and cry